Tortured Soul

I'm going through an internal struggle right now.  I've blurred the lines between me trying to understand what that final piece of the puzzle is for my own personal fulfillment with trying to understand why one of my friends is doing something that I feel is absent of any positive fulfillment.  I feel torn and now am trying to weed out my needs from my concerns for my friend.  I feel very much like one of the twisted creatures that made Robert Longo famous....